I’ve had 3 abortions ( with 3 different men) all in my late twenties. I was brought up Catholic.
First one newly graduated from college with my nursing degree.
Felt very ashamed (i should know better I know how to prevent pregnancy!)
I remember going to work (night shift) the day of my abortion. I guess trying to move on as fast as I could to forget. I knew I could not tell my parents my sister went with me to the clinic. My second one was with a man I married several years later. Just knew it wasn’t the right time to have a child for either of us. It’s never an easy decision planned pregnancy folks were very understanding thoughtful I was glad this service was available for me.
Third time very drunk slept with this man cause he so liked me and had taken me to the super bowl! Now I knew how fertile I was. My god I was so surprised and again angry depressed ashamed. I couldn’t see myself going thru with this pregnancy. I was supporting myself working full time. I knew a women who had left her home town to have her child and give it up for adoption I was very proud of her and thought how brave she was. She later married and had several children of her own.
Into my early thirties I knew I had an alcohol problem and now I am in recovery in AA. I look back on my sexual behavior and all the time alcohol played a part. My whole attitude about myself my body when I was drinking was one of feeling less than feeling worthless and not giving a damn.
If I was the women I am today I would not had taken part in such risky behavior. I would have been more conscious in my actions.
This is my past I have done a lot of work forgiving myself.
I do believe a women has a right to choose her path especially with her body. It doesn’t matter what i think. There are worse things out there pedophilia rape child abuse!! We should keep it available. At the same time teach our children the importance of being true to themselves develop a sound body image. Keep an open dialogue about sexuality.
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