I got pregnant at the age of 24. I was in a relationship with a cocaine abuser and hence our sex life wasn’t exactly stable. We would barely have sex. So when I first missed my period, pregnancy didn’t come to my mind. I figured it was because I had pco. I ignored it for 3 cycles. Eventually I noticed my breasts changing and my abdominal pains increasing. I had bad nausea and erratic food cravings. That is when I decided to go for an ultrasound to check what was going on.

There on the screen I saw my baby and it’s heart beating. I have always wanted a family, but I knew my partner wasn’t ready and I didn’t know if he was the guy to have a child with, considering his drug abuse. I went numb… I cried at first in happiness because the sight of my child was a feeling I cant explain…but eventually in fear because I didn’t know what would happen.

I scheduled an abortion a few days after my ultrasound. He came along with me to the clinic… I ended my child’s life on 28th of January. I regret that decision every single day, since.